(Before hand, I apologise, for my English isn't very good.)
My best friend in college and I decided to do our thesis together.
She's like very up there, her grades were always the highest, her reports always very well written, and she's so effortlessly good in everything.
I'm, as well, a good student, my career grade percentage is 92/100, which I think is ok. Not as good as hers, but at least I'm a honour student.
The problem is that we found a lot of issues with our thesis. We had to change a lot of things which resulted in us just having a couple of months to finish the document, if we intend to graduate when we have to.
I told my boss I had to take a break (it's an unpaid internship) that I would go back in September... But I haven't yet.
Why? Because I don't know what's going on with my thesis!
She told me what parts to investigate and what to do, and I had no problem with her taking control. But, she does TOO MUCH.
She doesn't let me help her enough. I've tried to take other parts and she just tells me "I already did it" or "I'll do it later"... It doesn't matter that I tell her "no, let me", she just changes the subject.
Perhaps , I'm just terrible at investigating? I don't really think so. She always complains about how much left we have and when I try to tell her: "let's do it together" or "let me take that", she changes the subject. I feel like she uses me just to go places or pick books up or go talk to people.
Maybe I should go back to that internship that I hate? I can't. because any minute she may need me.
It feels like a owe her something, and I hate it. I want to be useful. We talk ALL the time, but when it comes to out thesis she shuts up.
Don't get me wrong, I've written some 90 pages of it... But she has done way more than me. And she changes whatever I sent her. She proof-reads it all and changes it.
Maybe it's my fault for being so passive or maybe she's doing me a favour, maybe I'm not smart enough. I don't know.